Monday, January 10, 2011

My new favorite store!

Before the baby I have to say I never actually had been in a "Babies R Us" store. The stores that I frequented the most was probably Bloomingdales and Macy's. Now that the baby will be here in less then 3 months,  I have been to this baby store more times then my husband probably would like to count. I will admit I went a little overboard when they had a sale on all newborn clothing, but like I told my husband they make such cute boys clothes now!

For so many years I had been the aunt or friend buying a present for a baby shower, now here I am looking for my baby. Buying items for the baby is the part that makes this whole process worth it. The adoption process can sometimes leave you feeling exhausted or overwhelmed, but as soon as I saw a pair of baby tennis shoes those anxiety feelings are quickly replaced with feelings of excitement. Knowing that one day I will have a baby boy who would actually wear those shoes.

One day at the baby store, a women was looking for a present for a friend who was having a little boy. She noticed I was also looking at baby boy clothing. She asked me if I had a little boy. I then smiled and said no, but I will be soon.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

The physics in the quest

I just saw "Eat Pray Love" last night and really related to one of the last excerpts of her book. I feel it related to me as I am continuing this journey I call life. Here is the excerpt:

"The physics in the quest is a force of nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The truth behind those laws states that if you are brave enough to leave behind everything that is familiar and comforting to you (which can be anything from your home or even bitter resentments).... and set out on a truth seeking journey, (either internally or externally)... and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue... and if you accept everyone you meet as a teacher... and if you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some very difficult  realities about yourself....then the truth will not be withheld from you!"

Some might wonder how this relates to adoption. I am realizing that this whole adoption process is just another chapter in my life's journey. It stretches you emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Anyone who truly knows me, is aware of some tough roads I have been on while on my life's journey. Along each road I have taken I have tried to learn something from each of them. I truly believe that the people I have met along my way have brought me to this point and that this road will take me to where my soul is to travel next.